Monday, April 25, 2016

Still Autumn

 . . . and loving it!
 This was my Tiger Lilly Stalks - only lasted a couple of days like this but was stunning in the garden.
 Thank you to all the people who commented on my last post.  It was heart warming to read the messages of people who felt the same way about special pets.  I still miss her.


 Beautiful Cyclamens in my hot house and in all the nurseries around town.  I just love them.  I knew I was getting old when I just adored them.  My mum always had them and raved about them when I was young, and I just didn't "get it" - she had them at the back door and they multiplied and she oooh'ed and ahhh'ed about them. I really didn't like them then.  Now I LOVE them!

 White Nerines popping up everywhere . . . so many delights of Autumn.

Sunday, April 3, 2016

My Beautiful Girl

Nellie has been my loving companion for the last 8 years.  She's the one who slept snuggled up to me at night, and greeted me when I got home from work. 
She kept me company in the sewing room always, and LOVED all of my quilts and projects.  She was always the first to sit on anything new and give it her stamp of approval.


 
 I first met her (I like to say at the RACV) at the RSPCA.
On her card it said she was in the TV Show The Saddle Club.
She instantly purred when I met her and wanted to snuggle into my arms.  I knew she was the one we would take home.  She was 2 years old at the time and had already had a litter of kittens.  Most people were after a kitten.
 
 She had a kind face and a loving nature.  She was my girl.
 A few weeks ago she became very ill.  We had a couple of trips to the vet, and despite everything, she didn't improve.  She stopped eating and hardly moved, except to go out into the garden where she could watch me work and feel close at all times.
 The time came where I had to make a heat breaking decision to let my friend sleep forever in my garden.
 It has been a difficult week for me, saying goodbye to such a loving friend who has been through so much with me through some troubled times.
 She so loved my new Glass House and often used to curl up on my chair out there while I was at work during the day.

Rest in Peace my friend

Monday, March 14, 2016

Autumn Glory is in my Garden

 Begonia's are blooming in my hot house.

 This is a lovely native hibiscus that is thriving in my potato box out the back.  The only downfall of this plant is that the flowers only last a couple of days, so I have to check each day so as not to miss them.
 This is the Make A Wish Salvia, and has been flowing like this ALL summer and now into Autumn.  Great value in the garden.
 Hannah Gordon Rose - a lot like Double Delight.

 Japanese Windflowers . . . and this lovely Clematis
 . . . and finishing off with this spectacular Begonia at my back door.  That was a walk around the garden with me today.

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

Xephyranthes

 I think it was last year some time when the lovely Ros from Bloom sent me an exciting parcel in the mail.
 It contained some very special bulbs, and this is one of the results.  I'd forgotten what it was, and the tag has long since gone west, so I set about investigating my mother's gardening books the other night.
 This was the result: Xephyranthes. commonly known as Rain Lilly.
 It is so beautiful and just a single flower so far. 
 -Thank you Bloom-
for sharing some of your garden with me.



Autumn has come and it's a wonderful time in the garden.  Lots of pinks at the moment and . . . loving it.

Sunday, February 28, 2016

I forgot to mention

 Thank you all for your responses to my last post.  I forgot to mention how important my blogging and the blogging community were in those difficult years.  It was so helpful to be able to loose myself in a creative, supportive community and share passions and ideas, and also receive such wonderful feedback constantly from all over the world. Thank you all.
 I'm feeling much better heading into the next week, and I wanted to mention how wonderful it was to see this well worn quilt hanging on the line in my sister's garden on my last visit Up North.  I make my quilts with love and to see them loved is my reward.
 Zinnia's would have to be one of my favourite Summer flowers.  They are so bright and cheery, and last for such a long time. 
 I have a soft spot for hydrangea's too.  I set up a watering system this Summer so they haven't suffered at all.  Soon it will be time to prune them all back.  I think I will take lots of cuttings this year.  There are always more places to plant them . . . don't you think?

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Half Way

 Last year I turned 50.  I always thought that used to be half way.  But really and truly, people don't generally live to be 100 as a rule.
 Reaching this significant marker in my life, it got me thinking fairly seriously.  I have made some big decisions in the last couple of years. Looking back now some time has passed, I can see that they needed to be made, but the timing had to be right.  I'd been trapped in my own lunch box - hiding from the reality of desperate situations and finding it hard to breathe.  In order to keep the momentum of life going, I often behaved in a manic way, and sewed continuously, in my room, blocking the light of the world . . . of my world.
 I made beautiful quilts, a beautiful garden, and lived for the beauty of new wonders each day in the garden.  It is a sanctuary for me out there - just wandering and wondering, and sometimes not even thinking at all but just keeping so busy that I didn't have to face the harshness of my reality.
Almost 2 years ago, I separated and divorced my husband of 21 years.  Someone once said to me:
"what you want at 26 is not necessarily what you want at 46"
I have broken the family that I helped create and in so doing have broken my children's hearts.
It was a very hard decision to make - but I believe it was the right one.
I felt my life was over - I was going through the motions -
Figuring that I am actually past half way, I decided that I needed to be happy.  I decided I deserved love in my life. I decided that I could use a break from living constantly on the edge, watching my words and following rules.
I made a choice.
I still love my children.
I am still their mum.
I will always be their mum.
I am a stronger person now, but every now and then I feel helpless and have some bad days.  This week those days have found me.
I've spent most of the day . . . in my garden
 

Monday, February 15, 2016

My Ballarat

 Yesterday I went for a lovely walk in the local Botanical Gardens.
 I am always delighted at just how beautiful they are.  A lot of work goes into maintaining them, and I really should walk through there more often.
 My main motive was to look inside their glass house, and see what they had growing in there.  I thought it would give me some ideas for mine.



 It is a magnificent structure in the gardens and it was just lovely inside.  I sat on the comfy chairs for awhile just 'drinking' it all in.
 I have water Lillie plants in my garden fish pond, but I have never been lucky enough to get a flower.  These were just beautiful.





 The sun was shining, and the band was playing music in the park across the road.  It made for a very pleasant afternoon in the gardens.

I think I'll go back again another day.